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Left work at 5.30 last night and actually had a full nights sleep. First time in a very long time. May actually have enough brain energies available to complete a whole post. (Although given that I've already made 17 spelling mistakes typing three sentences, maybe not...)
Am very very very veryveryvery tired. Work is still ridiculously busy and have taken to providing us with a constant stream of chocolate and pizza to keep us going through the midnights and weekends. Good for morale, bad for waistline. Hopefully the worst of it is now over, but I think it'll take a bit to get back to feeling human. And end of year report season begins in May, bringing with it more potential late nights.
Keep telling myself 'no more overtime' but the money could make a real difference as to how much I get to do when I go visit my brother, and I hate letting people down. But I KNOW I need to pull back a bit... am feeling stretched and worn down.
Am trying to work out if I still want to do the full level 2 creative writing Open University course next year. Have been wondering things like:
Am very very very veryveryvery tired. Work is still ridiculously busy and have taken to providing us with a constant stream of chocolate and pizza to keep us going through the midnights and weekends. Good for morale, bad for waistline. Hopefully the worst of it is now over, but I think it'll take a bit to get back to feeling human. And end of year report season begins in May, bringing with it more potential late nights.
Keep telling myself 'no more overtime' but the money could make a real difference as to how much I get to do when I go visit my brother, and I hate letting people down. But I KNOW I need to pull back a bit... am feeling stretched and worn down.
Am trying to work out if I still want to do the full level 2 creative writing Open University course next year. Have been wondering things like:
- Can I fit it in? Have been struggling with fitting in short courses as it is. On the other hand, I'm very aware that I am working too much right now and need to cut down on overtime. Maybe I'd be able to fit a lot more in if I always went home at 5.30
- Do I want to write enough? I wanted to write as a hobby, and for enjoyment, but it is so easily turning into a nagging source of guilt
- Would I be better off spending more time honing some new illustration styles? Yes this would be doing more work, but might also lead to me being more confident and productive at work, and less prone to work long hours to make up for imagined weaknesses?
- Or should I stop all of this and actually do nothing for a while? Just spend evenings reading and watching TV and gardening without feeling guilty about it. But then I just feel that life is slipping through my fingers.