Body confused at not being at work
Ok... So after several weeks of itchy skin and not sleeping and working way too many hours finally got to the doctors. As a result got the rest of this week off work and various lotions, potions and drugs to make eczema bearable again. Large whack of sedatives last night means that I woke up this morning for the first time in ages without parts of me dripping blood from scratching in my sleep. Good thing actually did sleep, bad thing now feel slightly zombiefied.
Now suddenly have three options:
1. Make the most of time off by doing lots of DIY, artwork and teach-yourself stuff so that I can get a little closer to having a nice place to live and being able to apply for decent jobs
2. Take the week off everything that's bothering me, chill, go to pub, watch TV and do nothing and actually have a social life (but be back where I started next week)
3. Give up, crawl under the covers and die (which I know is not a sensible option but is strangely appealing... I want to just give up for a change instead of always trying to get somewhere and never getting anywhere)
All three have their merits but my brain is too fuzzy to make decisions and now I'm panicking again cos I don't know what's best to do
Now suddenly have three options:
1. Make the most of time off by doing lots of DIY, artwork and teach-yourself stuff so that I can get a little closer to having a nice place to live and being able to apply for decent jobs
2. Take the week off everything that's bothering me, chill, go to pub, watch TV and do nothing and actually have a social life (but be back where I started next week)
3. Give up, crawl under the covers and die (which I know is not a sensible option but is strangely appealing... I want to just give up for a change instead of always trying to get somewhere and never getting anywhere)
All three have their merits but my brain is too fuzzy to make decisions and now I'm panicking again cos I don't know what's best to do
